First I have to apologize that this post was delayed for so long. Just that the fake happiness surrounding the winter holidays make me sick.So, returning to post I want to ask you...what do you reach to grab when the ground you stand upon starts to shake and endanger your life. I guess not only once has happened to you this. The moment of perish bliss. When you feel all your points of sustain vanish and all the you believed in starts to change, evolve or decay in something you feel unfamiliar with. You grow scare and panic. And you hope for a way, an item or a person to drag you out of all this realm of incertitude.
Well... when it happens to me, instead of reaching for help, I take a deep breath and start to jump. Harder, insane, for the only reason in my mind is to shatter all that I stand upon. A nemesis with a fake sense of understanding that want all destroyed,cause I feel for real that I will never be able to build something until all that was before it's gone. No ruins, no embrace of what once was... but instead the calm and the freshness of e new start. A perfect reset.
That's why I won't fear the turmoils and incertitude that life lays in front of me. Cause they can be the premise of my desired fall. And if I won't be able to rise again, stronger, but most of all, complete, then my worthlessness has taken it's toll for the dangerous games I was playing although I might have not been prepared.
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